Things with food started to go bad about two years ago though in the past year it has gone from a bit of an issue to something that has taken over my life. I have been through many many phases of the thinking tomorrow is a new day, I will just eat healthy and I will beat this, I will be 'normal' again but everytime I fail. I can't shake this off. I have come to accept this is part of me now, I think the quicker I accept this the less time I will spend trying to decide what I want the more time I will have to enjoy my life even if I am just enjoying it as a skinnier version of myself. I believe I suffer from annorexia but the self conflict of whether to eat and get better has resulted in me having bulimic episodes as well. This means instead of me being like 5st I am 7st. Now I have come to terms with the fact that anorexia is a part of me that is not bad, it's beautiful, it's art I can concentrate on it and fully live my life by it. This blog will allow me to stay strong, to live this way of life hopefully with the friendship of others similar too.
Robyn x
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